I only feel at home when emerged in saltwater,
sweat, or the rhythm of my mind spinning
the familiar tune, never at rest.
My one regret is that I can’t take off my skin,
an apron stained with the grease of endless
expectations, and wear passion
like a firefly, bound to burn out by mid-August,
I can only watch with these two eyes
which would rather feel than see:
two nocturnal wings merged with the sky.
I can only live in this one body, know
from inside this body, love with this body—
boundary of flesh and senses, stamped with shame,
robbed of reverence, but somehow still whole.

Diana Athena

Sonnet to Onself

Whole still how some but rence verrev of robbed
shame with stamped sessen and flesh of reader boun-
dybo this with love dybo this side in from
nodybo one this in lively on can I
sky. The withmerged wings naltur noctwo
see than feel therra. Would which eyes
two these with watch lion can I
gust omit buy-out burn to bound flyfire. Alike
sionpa wear and tionsta pecex.
Less end of grease the withstained pron-a an
skin, my offtake can’t I that is gretre. One, my
rest. At verne tune. Liar mifa the
ning spin mind my of them ritheor sweat-
ter wasalt in merged even home at feel only I.

Selbst-Wahn tu netso

Hol still huch Summe Bad-Ranzwanz auf Robben
Scham eh fies standepede Session Anfleisch auf Ried. Erbauen
die Bot ohne fiese laf die Bot seit in fromm
Not Ibo-Wahn Diss in livlich nur Kahn-Ei
Ski. See fiesmurged Wings Nalthur noch zwo
sie dann viel Terra. Wut wich Eis
zwo dies fies watschen Lyon-Kanei.
Gast-Omi bei Au(bu)to-Band vllt. Feier. Ehlich
Sie ohne paar wehr an Stations-Päcks.
Lese Ente oft Gries, seh Widerstand pronalen
S-Kinn. Mai oft Tag kannte Ei dat is‘ gretret. Wann, Mai
Rest? Advers tun. Laie mei Phasen
innig spinnt mein Maid oft dem Reittheorschwett.
Der Basalt in mürzt eben Hom @viel online Ei.

Somehow still hole

Hello slo-showtime
hollow islet homes
SOS till homo wheel
homo wheel till SOS.
Slot hills, em, oho we,
emit hell (SOS howl)
whoosh mello’ tiles!
We shoot molehills
hollow ethos slime
whelm Isolo tholes
whoso lollies them
wholesome lil shot:
Hole holism towels
lo! Hellish twosome

Somehow still whole

Heimweh Solos wollt
Wim-wohl ehelos lost
Wim, hohl Esel-W-Tools:
Holte sowohl Ewmils  
Emils Hotel sowohl             
Ethos so will wohlem.
Eisslot wohl wohlem
Moll Elite Show-Show
Eh mies wollt sowohl
eitlem SOS wohl wohl
sowohl twolles Heim
sowohl Weihmel-Slot. 
Wow. Los, hol steilem
Wohl: so teils wohlem.

Sonsonnetnet toto Oneoneselfself

II ononlyly feelfeel atat homehome whenwhen eemergedmerged inin
saltsaltwawaterter,
sweatsweat, oror thethe rhyrhythmthm ofof mymy mindmind spinspinningning
thethe fafamilmiliiarar tunetune, neneverver atat restrest.
Mymy oneone reregretgret isis thatthat II can’tcan’t taketake offoff mymy skinskin, anan aapronpron stainedstained withwith thethe greasegrease ofof endendlessless exexpecpectatationstions, andand wearwear paspassionsion
likelike aa firefireflyfly, boundbound toto burnburn outout byby mid-mid
AuAugustgust,
II cancan ononlyly watchwatch withwith thesethese twotwo eyeseyes
whichwhich wouldwould raratherther feelfeel thanthan seesee:
twotwo nocnocturturnalnal wingswings mergedmerged withwith thethe skysky.
II cancan ononlyly livelive inin thisthis oneone bobodydy, knowknow
fromfrom ininsideside thisthis bobodydy, lovelove withwith thisthis bodybody-
bounboundadaryry ofof fleshflesh andand sensensesses, stampedstamped withwith
shameshame,
robbedrobbed ofof revrevererenceence, butbut somesomehowhow stillstill
wholewhole.

Sonnnnettt tan Oneselbst

Iich onlyr feeühlmich atzu homeause wheenn emergauschend iin saltzwattsssser,
shweaeitzß, oroder thdem rhythmmus ofvon myeinem mindeist spinningdrnd
thdeen familiartrauten tunelodie, nevernie atin rüsthe.
Myin oneziges regretauern isist thdass Iich ckan’cht takegen offab myeine skinaut,
aeine aschpronürze stainfleckt witmit thdem greasett ofvon endleossenden
expectungen, aunndd weartrage passionschaft
liwie aein firewürmchen, boundden tzou burnnnen ouauts byis midte-Aauuguusstt,
IIch ckaannn onlyr watchschen withit thieeseen tzwwoei eyegen
whichie wouüldn raber feeühllen thanals sseeehen:
tzwoei nocturnliche wlügel mervgedschen withit thdeem skyimmel.
IIch ckaannn onlyr liveben iinn thdiessem oneeinen bodörper, knossen
fvroon insiehalb thdiieses bodörpers, loieven withit thdiiessem bodörper—
beoundzung ovon fleish aunndd sensnen, stampelt withit schaame,
beroaubbedt ovon revfurcht, buatber irgendhow stdiochh whoeanz.

Liola Mattheis

Selfone to Netso